Poetry: Regret

By Monica C. Voskamp

I lost you to the wind

One day you were here

And the next you were gone

I lost you to the wind

And there’s no way

You’re ever coming back.

I could search my whole life

I could sail the 7 seas

I could cross the distant sands

Yet still I could never meet

The speed of the wind nor

The trail it blazes in time.

I lost you to the wind

And that is on me

That is on me.

 © 2020 MONICA C. VOSKAMP
Always hope. Always believe. Always love. ❤

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Poetry: Finding My Way

By Monica C. Voskamp

 

I’m sending up whispered lonely prayers

Wandering round in hasty twilight hours

Anxiety building as is the dark

I don’t even know which road I’m on

So God please quick,

Help me find my way back home.

 

I thought I had read my compass just right

But it seems the map got twisted on me.

Upside down, right side up, so confusing

I don’t know which way is north or south.

So God please lead,

Help me find my way back home.

 

I take a breathe and centre myself

Stop a moment and reread the map

Let the daunting of uncertainty fade

As I calm the road becomes more clear

Still God please stay

Help me find my way back home.

 

Always hope. Always believe. Always love. 💕

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Poetry: Summer Song

By Monica C. Voskamp

 

Floated away

Late one summer’s eve

My heart’s song.

 

I search the wind

The forests deep

I search the creeks,

The streams and trees

But cannot find her.

 

Captured somewhere

Her voice can’t speak

My heart’s song.

 

I call out to the stars

I scream into the dark

I call her name loud

Every turn I make

Yet still cannot find

My heart’s song.

 

I’m so sorry

Tears stream down

I’m sorry for mistaking

The beauty you were

And letting the dark

Become your hiding place.

 

I’m so sorry

Again I apologize

I know you’re afraid

I know you’re broken

Silent melody now.

 

Hiding somewhere

Scared to come out

My heart’s song.

 

I won’t give up

I know you’re longing

To play notes of joy

I promise you,

You will sing again.

 

I will find you,

Mend your broken strings

Hold you close, help you see

It’s still possible

To sing.

 

I catch winter’s cold

Let him carry me

Into the ice below

Determined to find

My heart’s song.

 

Frozen somewhere

In past chaos,

She is covered deep

Waiting for warmth

Of gentle healing free.

 

I’ll find the key

With sunlight’s love

Melt frozen lyrics

Free serenade sweet

My summer song.

 

Always hope. Always believe. Always love. ❤

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Poetry: Soil of Ruins

By Monica C. Voskamp

Let me soak this quiet in
Just for a moment
Let me close my eyes
And live where time is not.

Escape to another world
That holds no stress
No turmoil, no pain
This my destination.

It’s calm here
Bliss
Relaxing
Perfect vision
Pure ecstasy.

This hidden fantasy
Calls me every day
Place of freedom
Place of no time.

It may be a moment of delusion, true,
But it’s worth the trip
To catch my breathe
And just be not human.

A non sensored heartbeat
A millisecond retreat
Before I acknowledge
My real location
My real identity.

This chaotic planet
This revolving muddied mass
Us blind stumbling humans
All navigating mortal fog.

Confused DNA
Passed on generation to generation
Broken race we are,
Humanity.

Who we are
Where we are
How we are
Just functioning 24/7.

A paradoxical concept,
Always living,
Always dying.

This is my why
To be light years away
If only for a heartbeat
I am not here.

I am not here
I am taking a mind trip
A deserter, a protestor
A lost soul on the run.

Never succeeding
Never eluding
Always trying to leave
This soil of ruins,
Reality.

 

Always hope. Always believe. Always love. 💕

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Poetry: Find Me

By Monica C.  Voskamp

 

Where. When. Will you

Find me?

In these empty places

Will you meet me?

In these barren caves

That hold no answers

Here I am,

This is where you can

Find me.

 

 

I’m waiting. Wondering.

Willing you

To come to me.

Time crawls by

I haven’t seen dawn’s light

Yet.

 

Are you still digging through

My past rubbled heap

Are you lost, perplexed,

Maybe turned off,

By the maze leading

To me?

Or can I trust you

To navigate complex corridors

With certainty?

 

 

At the very least,

Just let me know

You’re coming.

I need this hope,

I need to know,

I need one affirmation,

I’m on my way

 

Just please,

Hurry up.

Find me.

 

Always hope. Always believe. Always love. ❤

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