*When your soul is given a seed of hope, something starts to grow right away.*
By Monica C. Voskamp
It’s been dark down here.
Pitch dark.
I’ve been longing for the light.
Hoping with everything I got left
Light even exists.
Hoping with desperation,
But every day I’ve ceased to find it’s existence
Has pushed me further and further
Into hopeless dark.
I didn’t want to accept light may not exist.
I can’t accept that,
That pure hopelessness.
But the more I searched
The more I came up empty handed.
Despair enveloped me.
It was almost suffocating.
It was frightening.
It was destroying me.
Emptiness has been
My way of life.
It’s been crowding out the light
Soul light.
My soul’s been yearning
Yearning for the oxygen of truth,
For a world that doesn’t contradict.
My soul’s been yearning
Yearning yet never,
Never finding.
It’s been a long time down here
Here in the muddied dirt of religion
Lies, pain and confusion.
I wasn’t sure how much longer
I could face this dark.
One only has so much strength.
But a turn of events
I didn’t expect,
A wick was made a flame.
I now hold in my hands
A tiny bit of preciousness,
Light.
Relief floods me to know,
My story is not going to end
Forever alone,
Forever in the dark,
Forever down there.
My story now has
A hopeful stance.
The dark can only linger so long.
Time *will* come when I find
Another wick, and another.
Light *will* banish the horror
Of this God forsaken place.
Light will overcome all the fear,
All the demons lurking
Down here.
Light has pointed my compass
To the true north.
I’m no longer lost.
I’m no longer going in circles.
I have a path to follow,
That will lead me straight.
It’s just taking one step forward,
Day after day.
Now I believe,
I can get through.
I can find my way home.
Because my compass
Is no longer spinning out of control
It’s no longer lying and sending me
All the wrongs ways.
My compass has found
A Resting place,
The true north.
It won’t lie to me no more.
No, no more lies.
I have a light guiding me
It has my compass set,
Pointed north.
Always hope. Always believe. Always love. ❤
*Cover Photo Credits: Photo by Aaron Burden on Unsplash
