Belief: Your lifeline.

By Monica C. Voskamp

He stared at my photos of the past obese me and then locked eyes on the current present me, shook his head in awe and said to me: “Monica, if you can lose 100 pounds…you can do anything.

That phrase has stuck in my mind. So many times I’ve undermined my ability. Scratch that. I haven’t even believed I have ability. It’s weird. It just never was a card in my hands–to believe I was able.

I wrote on my white board this week: You are capable.  I need this visual reminder of the belief I want my heart to live loud. This is a very emotional realization: You are capable.  Part of me feels guilt for not realizing this sooner. Another part of me is excited and incredulous upon discovering: I can. I can. I can.

For so long I’ve lived in my truth being: I can’t. And it seemed the universe always gave me one more experience to concrete that belief. But thank God, the universe has also given me experiences, people, situations that just spelled out blaring obvious: You can. You can. You can.

I have lived in the ‘I can’t’ mentality for so long whenever someone told me “I can”, the words kinda ricocheted.  But, somewhere along the line a shift in my thinking began.

“I can do anything.” This statement is so bold. The more I examine what I do and get honest with myself I think: Wow, if I’d apply serious effort and time into this…I could make something good. I could be successful…really successful.

I’m lost in shock and wonder at this possibility.

Believing you can is more than half the battle. Your belief is your lifeline. It is written on every second of your timeline. Know your belief. Hold it close for this is your good. And never let the world tell you differently. This is your core fundamental truth.

You, you, you (!) get to decide upon which truth you live. And when you live in that truth, your mind, your days, your relationships, your projects, your situations—good or bad—will all line up very differently, simply because you believe you can, instead of you can’t.

Your mindset matters. That voice inside your head is your power. Grab it. Train it. Wrestle it. Feed it. Nurture it.

Your voice is your choice. “I can…I can do anything.”

And you can.

 © 2020 MONICA C. VOSKAMP
Always hope. Always believe. Always love. ❤

*Photo Credit: Photo by Roan Lavery on Unsplash

Poetry:..100 percent..

By Monica C. Voskamp

 

I believe in you.

I believe in you

Though not 100 percent

—yet.

 

I believe in you

For what you can do

Right now.

 

I believe in you

You will find your joy

You will.

 

I believe in you

Even though this power,

Was not instilled in you.

 

It does not matter so much

The voices of the past.

They don’t stand a chance

Because your trumph card is this:

I’m finally starting to believe

In you.

 

That I finally can look at you

And smile when I do,

This gives me hope,

Hope I’m starting to believe.

 

Hope that I will do more

than just dream today.

Hope that one day I will

Believe the full 100 percent.

 

Today the door cracked opened.

I took the first step and decided:

I actually do believe.

I believe the most important part,

The very first 10 percent.

 

No matter it’s a little bit,

It is still belief.

I believe in beautiful humanity,

I believe in *you*.

 

Don’t lose heart at all.

Because as much as I believe

You can smile so beautiful,

(And I know you do this well)

Know you can also climb the charts to

100 percent.

 

Always believe. Always hope. Always love.  💕

Poetry: I Am More

By Monica C. Voskamp

I say no.

You say, So?

I say wait,

You say, let’s go.

I change my mind,

you couldn’t care less.

 

Your mind is fixed

Regardless of my word.

Regardless of my state.

Regardless of my pain.

 

You are gaining,

I am losing,

You have power,

I lack courage.

You call the shots,

I’m scared to object.

I don’t believe in myself

Just yet.

 

One day I will.

I will push back.

I will stand my ground.

I will walk away head high

Even when you command,

And Threaten me

I’ll put on my heels

And just walk away

With Dignity.

 

I will walk away , I will.

I am worth far more

Than your worthless pushover

Whore.

 

I am more.

I am more than just some mans

Property.

I am more than a lowlife

commodity.

I am more than a pawn

Manipulated by corrupted hands.

I am so much,

More.

 

Always believe. Always hope. Always love. ❤️

* Photo Credit:https://unsplash.com/@___rob__